Throw Caution To The Wind
The first time I got to hang out with you, it felt like I was in gradeschool. The word crush suddenly crashed again into my vocabulary. You were that guy who looked so confident and honestly, you weren’t exactly mister nice guy in my mind. But you were cute and attractive and very amusing to talk to and as the days went by you proved all my wrong impressions. You talked about cars and photography and many other things I was also interested in. That day we first got to talk, I couldn’t help but stare and mind everything about you. How your scent seems to be a kiss from the morning sun, it just blew my mind away. The way you carry yourself well in simple shirt and shorts, it was just really nice to look at. And when you smiled at me, I swear that I was already secretly giggling from the inside. But just like gradeschool, I thought those feelings were just going to be gone like an ice cream van.
The next time I got to hang out with you, it wasn’t like some puppy crush anymore. There was something about my feelings for you that went straight into my veins. You already made me blush plus there was this nervous feeling about being afraid of messing things up. The way you fix your surfer guy hair, the way you walk with a stance, the way you look at me, it already made my heart skip a beat.
And then you started to ask me out, we started to held hands, we started being sweet to each other. It’s as if every time were together, we instantly connect. The way you look into my eyes, you make me feel something more than just a gaze. But instead, a feeling of what falling in love would look like. That’s when I realized that I was already falling for you.
When I talk to you, I realized that most of the time my sentences are trailing off. I always lose focus, just watching your lips move, the rhythm of your fingers tapping on the table, the way you look at me as if I’m going to melt. The way you put your arms around me and sing to me, it’s mesmerizing. Everything you do just makes me want you more.
I love how you are mystery to me, a new puzzle to solve. I can never understand how you are someone who I can spend hours with, and still want more. Or how no matter how long we stay on the phone, I already miss you the second we get off. Or how even if I’m having the worst day ever, just one text from you already brightens me up. Most of all, I can never understand how odd it is who I just met can feel like home and give me comfort and security of years, even though I’ve only known you for a few weeks.
It’s just that, as every day goes by, I’m liking you more and more. I’m so caught up with how much I like you and want you in my life, it’s terrifying. But when I remember how much I want to make you feel better on your worst days or how your smile already makes me happy, or how you sweep me off my feet every single time, I know you’re not just some crush anymore. This is something else and I know it might be scary, but this time I’m willing to risk.
