My own personal pleasure: Writing

Wow, I can’t believe it. This is already my 839th post. I’ve kept this blog since April 2009 and I can’t believe I’m still trying to update this now- with all originals and no reblogs.

So anyway, I’ve always been a frustrsted writer and a good photographer. Even if I don’t really take this blogging way too seriously, it helped a lot in bringing me to where I am now. There are probably lots of posts to hate or lots of posts I wish I should have deleted but didn’t, especially those that were exposed too much to the public that should have been private. But nonetheless, looking back, it feels good because it encouraged me to be a better person. They say the words you write (and the pictures you take) mirror who you are. I guess not a hundred posts or even a thousands will clearly define who I am but I assure you: what you’re getting is a hundred percent real, all me.

Honestly, I’m not really certain someone reads my blog or take a minute of their time every night just to drop by here. I’m not famous enough and I don’t wish to be. For the most part, I just really get so much pleasure with writing and taking pictures. I cannot be any more passionate with anything else. That’s why I continue to write- for my own personal pleasure. And why do I take pictures? I want to be a good photographer someday and I believe in myself enough that I can do that.

So maybe you’re wondering, why all this rant about writing? It’s just sometimes maybe at the back of my mind, I should have taken up a course in writing like Journalism or Creative Writing. But why didn’t I? First, because I’m more of a visuals artist that’s why I’m going gaga over photography. Second, most people think it’s unprofitable. Third, I need a job that will feed my kids in the future. Don’t get me wrong but I love being an art student and I have no plans of shifting. It’s just writing is one of the things I am really passionate about and it got me thinking what I’m doing about it.

People might think that writing is lame but it isn’t. You need skill if you want to be a good writer. Besides passion, you really have to be good at it if you want to write a good piece. That might go to some things too but writing is just basically fueled by that.

Unlike math, there is no formula in writing. You cannot study to write or you cannot memorize how to write. I love to read a lot and it helps me in my way of writing but you will always need the drive and inspiration which is what frustrates me the most. When you try to make a good piece, you need to find inspiration in almost everything. I may love to read and write but I seriously doubt my writing capabilities. I don’t think or consider myself as a good writer. I can make a few mistakes, put the conjunctions in the wrong places but that’s just probably it.

But really, I believe in myself enough that in future I will be able to write somehing really sensible enough to people. I believe in myself not because I consider myself as a good writer but because I know I’m really passionate about it. I know inside me is reason why I love to write and when I lack inspiration, all that’s left to do is keep looking for that reason. It may be hard looking for inspiration but who said something in this world is easy? It’s just all about how you deal with it and how determined you are. I may not feel like I’m good at it enough but let’s just say I will try to be.

I guess I’m just going to embrace the power I do with words even though the only thing I normally do is blogging. I will be able to write something that will make sense to people someday. I will be.