Game on, 2011!
We’re exactly 11 days far from 2011 and yet somehow I’m starting to realize what I did this year. I guess I’m just trying to spill all my drama before this year ends. I’m completely turning away from all of it because honestly, I just want a clean slate. So basically, if you have no idea, I was kicked out from our house early this year, I adjusted to another school, I had minor break-ups with my 4-year boyfriend, and some parental issues. But now I’m back on track, I have a smooth relationship with everyone I care about. So basically, I’m about to end this year fine.
When I was a kid, I was made to believe that as long as you’re good to everybody, its easy to get whatever you want. It motivated me a lot in whatever I do. I study hard so I can get good grades so my parents would give me some sort of a “prize”, for example. It’s a rational fact of life that when we do good we get a reward. But then growing up, when I was starting to have my own principles, I found out that life doesn’t always turn out that way. Sometimes, no matter how hard you work for something, it won’t just fall onto your lap.
What I’m trying to say is: Life is unfair.
Most people believe that. It is indeed a fact of human nature. It is cynical and superfluous but I guess things just really turn out that way most of the time. Honestly, I can’t symphatize why some things don’t go smoothly when I was doing nothing wrong. There’s a lot of things I know I deserved to get but I still didn’t get.
I guess we all come out a little bit more wearied as more years and years pass. Everyday, we uncover a part of life’s reality. Sometimes it makes our life better, sometimes it causes us misery. I guess that’s life. Devious and always shifting.
But you know, it’s still not enough reason not to do well in everything. If anything, it’s supposed to make us better people that deals with life’s little needles in a better manner. It is supposed to make us more grateful if something good happens with our life.
So 2010, you drained and exhausted me so much. But like they say, what doesn’t kill me only makes me stronger. Game on, 2011!
